Hi it's Richie again. I have been holding on now to what seem to me to be a broken world. I barley get by now. I have posted on this site for almost a year. Thougts from most would be :He should have had a good job by now" if you took the time to read my last entry. Things are not better. Prayers do not seem to get answered.
It is sad to say that the cat I was feeding over eating myself has now passed on. I loved that cat more then anything in this entire world. He never asked for much except a can of food and some fresh water. I guess he just could not hold on any longer. As for me, I have been living on Top Roman, I can but 5 backs for a dollar. Even a dollar is a lot. Sometimes I eat week old bread and coat it with mayo to take away the nast taste. Water from the tap is just fine with me. When I pass a place where I see happy folks sitting around a nice table, candle glowing etc, my only thought is "I wonder how that food tastes" and what are they going to do with the left overs. I have not done what is known a dumpster dive, but it now would not be off my list. I will once again be living in the dark, as my lights and power should be getting turned off soon. I have a cell phone that I keep about 10 minutes of time in case I just no longer want to be around and can call someone if only a hospital where I can get some food.
I dont believe that this is a site that people are willing to send money to help because there are those like myself who need help, that have been taken by those who were only out for a buck or so. If anyone can see in their hearts to send me anything at all to make me feel half human and decent again, I would honor and bless them every single day. I sleep on a small mattress with a thin blanket. The cold is just around the corner now, and my next mission is to find something to keep me warm at night. My clothes that use to be so nice and clean are now nothing more them rotten smelly things. I could get a better interview if I had money to get a nice shirt, shoes and most of all self respect back.
I am not lazy, I apply myself everyday for work that can help me pay for the roof and some food but who would want to hire a man of my age that looks so down and out.
I still go to church every Sunday and sit and talk with God. I know he has a better plan for me but while he is working on it, I am fading away into a very lost soul.
If there is anyone that can send me a few dollars for food, a bed and clothes I would be the most gratful person in the world and I will never forget you. There may come a time when my life does a complete turn around, and I will be able to repay all that came to my aid. Thank you all for reading this and God Bless you all for being here...Riche..A Broken Man
